at a loss for words

I haven't posted in a while. Mostly because I haven't known exactly how to explain where I've been the last few weeks. A combination of homesickness and frustration with the lack of seeing results has gotten me down. Being a part of ministry where the fruit will not be evident until later is hard. And doing it without my support system and ways of coping has left me in a place that i have to fight my way out of regularly. i have found myself depending on God in new ways, on a deeper level.

its been hard.

"Things are going to change-- that is there nature. One day you succeed, one day you fail; one day you are at the top, another day you are at the bottom. But something in you is always exactly the same, and that something in you is your reality." -Osho

He is my reality. The only thing that will not ever change. Bad day. Amazing day. On the mountaintop. In the valley. He was. And is. And is to come. Always.

"Those who look to Him are radiant with JOY." Ps. 34:5

My prayer is that JOY will rise above how I feel.

PS: good news!!! I will be serving as the MFuge Developmental Director at University of the Cumberlands next summer!!!